I POAS this morning...bfn (big fat negative). I am 7dp5dt (7 days past 5 day embryo transfer) with our two precious embryos. There is now only a very very small chance we are pregos. We have a blood test on Monday to confirm.
I am sad but I am also determined! I will not let my heart harden this time. I will not fight His will. I will ask Him to use my heart to be a mother in His way. I will ask Him to humble my heart. I will ask Him for mercy to get through it. I will lean on Him to heal me.
By His grace alone I stand firm today,
Mrs. C
You are braver and stronger than you know. There is still hope for FET BFP. I hope you get great news tomorrow. But even if it is heartbreak you hear - HE will comfort you. Each moment makes you stronger, more focused and determined. Hugs and prayers
ReplyDeleteHey Stef,
DeleteThanks so much for your encouraging words! You will never know how much your words help. I hope you are doing good! How was your trip? Are you going to start another cycle soon?
Hugs :)
My trip was amazing. Of course I couldn't totally escape the IF monster. I had to take a day 3 blood test while away. The new doctor is having me take this supplement DHEA. Its backed by center for human reproduction in NYC. It has mixed reviews but suppose to have a big impact on low egg responders (that's me). I have to deal with this for 6 weeks and hope to have another cycle in November. I have been thinking about you a lot today. I know how difficult this is and what I can truly offer is real empathy and understanding and know the gammut of emotions. Which still take me by surprise at times. Such as yesterday when I was caught off guard by how irresoponsible some parents realy are and then bring in tears. Haven't really allowed tears to be a part of my journey lately. But clearly they must fall to move forward. If you are teary today know that they are neccessary to keep moving forward. Wish I could say or do more but I offer my understanding and ear and heart. Xoxo
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you had a grest trip! It is totally refreshing to get away from the IF world and just reality sometimes :) My doctor believes in the DHEA as well. I hope it helps you on your next round!! Thanks for the go-ahead to shed...I let myself have a good cry after we got the offical call. For some reason its easier for me this time. I have been in the word every day and I swear that is what is making the difference. I appreaciate your friendship and prayed for your next round this morning..actually I prayed that you would be blessed with a baby naturally but I take either way for you! I am glad you are allowing yourself to grieve..you are right...it helps!
DeleteI will email you this too so we can continue conversation that way.
Hugs